beautiful mess

So, I've been meaning to blog for a while, but I've actually been busy-in a very good, EXCELLENT WAY! And since I'm in SUCH a great mood and my spirits are so high, I decided to blog this way I can come back and read this from time to time to remember this feeling. (wow that's a REALLY long sentence.) Anyway, so I went home for Spring Break and I really think it was just the boost I needed. I didn't get to see ALL of my friends, which was a bummer, but I got to relax and hang out and have fun. I got to go to the zoo with my sister, her husband and their kids! I really like going pretty much anywhere with those kids, seeing things through their eyes is just so..cool! Oh I also bought the Twilight DVD at Midnight with my sister! That was fun, just cause she's way more nerdier than I am-yes it's actually possible! So even though it was a little embarrassing, it's not anything I'm not used to. So I'll have some pictures of spring break coming up pretty soon.

So as most of you know, I bought a bicycle a few weeks ago. Well at the end of the spring break, my mother and I made a pact. We've done this several times, but this feels different; it IS different! For one thing, I've found the perfect solution for my procrastination. well, ok, it's not perfect but it's a solution: I need small goals. I then can use those small goals to find out when the final result will be, but it works for me. For example, my apartment: I hate cleaning which is no secret to pretty much anyone. But this week I set small goals, one room per night and in some cases, parts of that room in one night and the room divided into two nights. And now, yes, I still have a few finishing touches on my apartment- it is definitely MUCH cleaner than before! It's so awesome to come home to a clean apartment. Well, that's what I've done with my mother! I figured it up and there are 4 months until my 25th birthday, which means, 16 weeks (there's actually a little less cause the 25th was this week, but you get the point.) If I lose 2 pounds a week, that's 32 pounds by my birthday! That's not even including the amount of weight that I normally lose in the summer (less stress, less snacks). I think that in the past, I've set very unrealistic expectations and have expected big losses each week and then I get disappointed and have given up! BUT NOT THIS TIME! All I did this week was rode my bike one night, walked one night and only had 2 Dr. pepper's ALL WEEK! And I LOST 3.2 POUNDS!! Plus we got paid today and I made it the WHOLE MONTH on my budget!! AHHH! That's SO AWESOME! I'm not really one to toot my own horn very often, okay maybe that's not completely true, but I try not to. I just had to write this blog so that in a week or month or year or ten years from now, when things aren't going as great as they are right now, I can remember that I CAN DO IT! Also you should take this as inspiration. I mean, if I can clean my apartment then you should be able to do pretty much anything FOR SURE!

I also just wanted to share something else with you guys. My motivation-inspiration got its start when James let me borrow Prince Caspian. Yes I had seen it already, but I don't know, there was something about it along with the music this time that just kicked me into gear. I also have been listening to the new Jason Mraz CD, which if you haven't listened to...well DO IT! It's SOO GOOD! One song has kind of stood out as my favorite, parts of it I can really relate to and it's actually the title of my blog. The other song is the last song from Prince Caspian. So Enjoy the songs! I had to add them, cause sometimes I really do feel like "Music is my boyfriend" Have a Happy WEEKEND!
Only 43 school days left- WOW! THAT'S NOT ALOT!

Beautiful Mess by Jason Mraz-he wrote this about me;)


The Call from Prince Caspian

spring happenings

So It's a blistery Wednesday evening here in my second floor apartment. Unfortunately, the weather is supposed to be bad and my hopes are rising. I'm hoping for a delay in school, and I don't think it's going to happen. Which I'll get over, it would just be REALLY great if it happened. I'm really excited about a few things happening. Spring Break starts in like 2 days!! WOOHOO! like 42 HOURS LEFT! Plus I have 3 guitar hero's to play now: GH3, World Tour, and Aerosmith. If you haven't played World Tour, OMG!! You can make your own character, I made a rock star that LOOKS LIKE me, or at least sorta. Plus I will get to see ALL of my friends in Amarillo over spring break- AT LEAST I BETTER! THIS IS YOUR WARNING! Which actually brings me to my next piece of news that I've decided to officially announce with bittersweetness. (is that a word?) I have decided that I am going to move back to Amarillo at the end of this school year. My first 2 years of teaching has been such an experience, and I think it's mostly due to the fact that my fellow teachers (and clerk and intern) are SO AMAZING!! So I hope that you're reading this because you guys have been my second family! Unfortunately, my Amarillo family are missing out on the wonderfulness that is ME in their life. I also don't think that you've been able to see the truly wonderful me while away from them. Because you Amarillo family (friends, family and others) have made me who I am and I have to pay you back some how :) THANK GOODNESS FOR THE INTERNET! So all my Midland family is not rid of me completely :) With Canyon opening 2 new elementary schools this Fall, my chances of becoming a Canyon employee have increased from like 2% to maybe like 20%, which is about as good as it's going to get. So please pray for me for that. To my Midland family, well, thank you soo much! I don't know that each of you really realize how important you are to me. If I had ended up anywhere else, I would be typing this from a dark corner curled up in the fetal position, so thanks for keeping my sanity in check and putting up with me when it wasn't :)

you know you would

Mix CD
I make a mix CD for all occassions: break-ups, birthdays, graduations, random days. I think Music is one of the best ways of expressing emotions!

Dr. Pepper (or other soda of choice)
Often over seas, they don't have drinks like they do here in the states. At least, I know some countries don't have dr. pepper.

Gossip Magazine
Who wouldn't want to hear all the gossip garbage?

cookies
Either homemade or girl scout cookies or other cookies of their choice, cookies just make you feel like your at home again...

pictures
It's nice to have pictures of friends, family while you're away from home.

All for one!

It's another boring, unproductive, lazy sunday night here in my apartment. Just finished watching "man in the iron mask" and it just reminds me of those early happy days when Leo DiCaprio was the BOMB! Like as long as you were watching a movie with Leo in it, the world was right...or was that just me and my sister!! LOL
So Andrea has talked me into getting a "twitter" account. Luckily it doesn't appear to have a whole lot of stuff to do just status updates, which I REALLY like!! I'm a BIG NERD when it comes to status updates. And apparently, according to neon, they're pretty amusing. So if you have a twitter account or if you make one, come find me: http://twitter.com/teddyzzil (yeah so original I know...)
Last week was....INTERESTING. I got to go home for 3 and 1/2 days. Had lunch with my mom and sister on Friday which was REALLY fun. Took my brother out for our annual birthday tradition thing. OH by the way before that, I bought a bike, new TV, 3 books, 3 movies, A NEW IPOD NANO! and guitar hero aerosmith. It was my little valentine's present to myself...but back to my trip. It didn't really turn out as planned, as most of the things I plan don't, and I didn't get to see one SINGLE friend!! AT ALL!! I missed you guys! But I'll be there for at least the weekend before and after spring break!
Well, the credits to Man in the Iron Mask are almost over so I better figure out what movie I'm going to watch next before going to bed! Tomorrow's college shirt day and Tuesday my kiddos take the Writing TAKS test- be thinking about them!! It's going to be tough!!
10 more days until SPRING BREAK!! WAHOO!!!!

Hey Mr. Postman!

So here I am on a Friday night, just back from a little "pre-shopping" shopping trip. My tax return was deposited today and I have plans, small-ish plans, but plans nonetheless. I'm going to buy a bicycle, for one thing! I LOVED riding my bike when I was kid. I was furious with my mom when she got rid of mine when I was like 15 or something, even though it was old and not really working. I always talked about getting one, especially when I was at Tech. Riding my bike to class just looked like so much fun. And now that I am READY to get into shape, I think bike riding is going to be AWESOME. I also talked about getting a small digital TV, but a nameless-evil friend has talked me into getting a bigger one and while at Target, I noticed that there was a 32" LCD TV for only $449!! That's not too shabby. So I'll make a list tonight and do some more pre-shopping tomorrow and by Sunday or Monday, I'll have both purchased-I hope. So here I am, drinking my rum and diet dr. pepper (i told you I was trying to get into shape) which also reminds me that while I have some extra money I should go to the liquor store.

Oh so another reason for the Friday-night blog is a thought occured to me today on the drive home and while I was shopping. I have helped many-a-couples with their ups and downs and even just sat back and observed (in a completely not-stalking manner) relationships, successful or unsuccessful. I have given advice, sat and listened, been the buffer or excuse or whatever to quite a few others. Yet nothing for me. It's like being a post-man for 15 years and not receiving a single piece of mail. ( I just made that analogy up, and I have to say it's a pretty damn good one!) I'm baffled as to why, I mean (and I'm going to stick with the postman analogy for a bit, just cause it makes me sound a little less pathetic in my opinion) its not like I'm not writing any letters. I love writing letters! (which I actually do!) Yet all I do is help other people write letters to each other without anyone writing me... so maybe (this is the thought that I had) maybe I'm just supposed to help people write letters. And a part of me is actually okay with that.

Well, hopefully I have a very productive weekend. Have tests to grade (eek) classroom to clean and rearrange, apartment to clean and products to shop for and purchase! So I'm going to enjoy my diet dp and rum and the movies that I just picked up from blockbuster and hopefully have a VERY PRODUCTIVE WEEKEND!!

one down

Well January is officially over. Yeah, I'm late, whatever. what's new? Just so you realize how much this blog means to me- i wanted you to know that this is the first time that I'm attempting to type with my hurt pinkie. So January was interesting to say the least. I don't know if it's just here, but the kids acted a fool pretty much the whole month! So let me get to the things that I'm likely to forget as I continue to type. I got to go see George W. and Laura Bush in their welcome home party here in Midland! So cool! So I made an unscheduled trip to Amarillo last weekend and surprised the family. That was fun! I got to go to one of Bobby's basketball games before the season ended so that was nice. It was a game at the North Y, and there must be something about that Y, cause just about every game that I've been to over there I have seen Speedo watching Wesley play. About halfway through bobby's game on Saturday, Wesley, Speedo, Mr. Speedo, and Lilly walked in the gym. I got a big hug from Wesley and Lilly. This next part will only mean something to those who know him, but after giving me a hug, Wesley asked me if I would stay and watch his game. So of course I stayed and got to chat, but I just thought it was soo..neat that Wesley asked me to stay and watch! The other neat thing about last weekend was that while I was at my parent's house I was completely inspired and worked LIKE CRAZY! It was nice.
Then February started.....
Monday and Tuesday went by okay, I was really glad to hear that I didn't really miss a lot by not watching the super bowl. Then Wednesday came around! My students earned an extra recess and so I took them outside to play. A few students were playing football and wanted me to toss the ball with them. (is that even the correct terminology?) A ball was thrown short and bounced right into my pinkie, which has happened a few times before, but like 2 hours later it still hurt, especially after coach tried to pop it back into place unsuccessfully!! So now it's like this purple color, but I'm at least able to somewhat use it today. I just hope I don't regret how much I've used it today. Anywho- This weekend was the CSC auction, which, for those of you non-CSCers, is an annual fundraiser-dance-dinner-auction for the Catholic Student Center at WT of which I was an active participant in during my time there. So this is my second one to attend as an alumni and it was quite fantastic. I wasn't sure about it, but my girls were there and we renewed our annual playground-chat-ritual. I got to talk and hang out with people I hadn't seen in a while and some new people that I had never met before. One unfortunate part was that I haven't gone dancing in a while, so I was going a little crazy and I had several people ask how much I'd had to drink-which wasn't a little, but not a lot either. But whatever-dancing is not to look pretty, it's for having fun.
I also think that the auction gave me just the boost that I needed to make it 25 more school days until Spring Break!!! Plus I'll be back for my brother's birthday on the 22nd! He'll be 12 years old! Oh and he sent me this video this afternoon, which I so gladly added to YouTube- you should check it out! Bobby
Thanks for reading and just so you know, i had to stop typing with my pinkie cause it hurt, so this took A WHILE to type-and NO I'm not being dramatic- just informative! :)

Afternoon with Deloris

So, I'm surprised that I have something to write about today, but I felt inspired to blog! I went to Sonic to get a bite to eat. It's such a nice day so I stayed there to eat my lunch. Then I decided to take a little drive around town, I don't get to just drive a whole lot, unless I'm driving to and from Amarillo. So with my iPod turned up and my window rolled down, I took in the sites of Midland. I'm not really sure what it was about driving around that had me thinking about stuff, but I started thinking. I just started thinking about how my life doesn't really suck that much. So I guess I just wanted to say thanks to all of you who contribute to my life not sucking. I appreciate it and I hope that sometime I have helped or will help your life not suck as much! :)